I'm not perfect, I'm not. In fact, I'm full of flaws. That's why I tend to hurt everyone around me. And I would tend to realise things too late. By that time, things are already out of control, out of reach, out of my imagination. Sometimes I wonder whether being generous, caring, concern, good to everyone around me, is doing a good service or a disservice. I think that by being all of the above mentioned, I'm actually hurting people more, restricting their lifes and even being selfish towards them. Guess I'm really that bad. Guess I ain't good to everyone around me. Guess I ain't that good. I'm just a fcuking idiot, retard, asshole.

Alright, this will be the only post I'm gonna post for the next 5 days. Officially going on a break since its mid-semester test week. Mugging mode's on. Will update on Friday's outing either on Saturday or something. Take care people, and to those who are taking the papers like me this week, good luck ! Bye peeps ! I will miss how I emo in this corner =x

Labels: Mid-sem Gambatte.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:00 PM

I don't know what did I do. I just know I'm cooped up inside me. I feel so suffocated. I feel so bad. I've changed haven't I? I've changed for the worst. I'm never as caring as before anymore. I'm never as good as I used to be anymore. I've changed in this short span of 3 months. I don't know why, I just feel so down. My moods ain't right. My mood swings from time to time. And I didn't really want to pick that up again. I told myself never to. But these promises are so hard to stick by. I always thought that by biting on to my teeth I can pass through all these obstacles. Yet, I've failed to. I've failed. I'm such a failure. I couldn't accede to all your requests, I couldn't be that good Mund I used to be, I couldn't anymore. I've tried hard. I've really tried. But I just don't know why.

I hate to disappoint and hurt people. Yet I've hurt those who cared for me. I know a mere sorry can never make up for anything already. But you people must know that I know you all care for me, that's why the decision is clear. I'll stop. I'll be okay. I swear, after this week, everything would be better. Though there's so many things to clear, I'll stay strong. I swear, so please don't be angry/disappointed with me. I'm sorry.

I promise nothing but I'm ready for anything as I strive to be everything.

Labels: sorry.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 3:00 PM

Since I'm waiting for my handphone to be charged fully before making my way to meet Hanyang, how about a random post on boys and girls?

Boys and girls differ in everything except for the fact that both are humans. -.- Well boys are better than girls in certain ways while girls are more noble in many ways too. How should I put this? Let's just say that boys and girls each have their own strengths and weaknesses. I'm not trying to be sexist here when I say boys are stronger than girls. Generally that's the idea. However there are also exceptions. Sometimes there are girls who are so much stronger than boys, be it emotionally or physically. That's just the general aspect.

Emotionally, girls tend to be weaker as they've got more things to think about. Boys would just get hurt for awhile and after that they would stand back on their feet firmly. Though what I've just highlighted was for the general boys and girls. There are some guys out there who really break down and whine like a sissy for days, weeks, months and even years ! While there are gals out there who can be so heartless that they don't feel a thing when they are hurt emotionally !

In terms of privileges received, girls have more of that than boys. For example, girls will often receive treats while boys will be the ones giving them most of the time. Its not that boys wanna complain or what, its just that they find it sad when they are the ones always giving and never receiving. While girls on the other hand kept receiving treats and gifts, which would naturally lift their spirits ! Which is why at times I wish to be a girl, because guys would stand treat readily for girls ! LOL !

Overall, I think that boys and girls each have their own pros and cons. Each have their own good and bad. It pays being either a boy or a girl. Since your sex have been determined since the day you are born (unless you want to go for sex change now), might as well live the best out of your life right? Okay, time to go study le ! Bye peeps !

Labels: Makes no difference.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 2:25 PM

5 modules to study for mid semester test, yet I've not started. Its already Saturday midnight now. Oh man, I'm a freaking procrastinator. I swear later after I wake up, I'm so gonna chiong chiong chiong studies ! And for the 3rd time, I wonder why mid semester is always more taxing than end semester tests. Its like, how come there's so little time to study for mid-semester? They should just give us a week off to study for them. That way I'll feel better, less stressed.

Was supposed to study at T3 just now. But me, a man duh and han yang were so distracted by the psp that we never touched a single stuff. Though I did read a little. (knowing the 3 financial statement counts?) The whole time we were there playing DJ Max -.- Seriously a man duh and hanyang are pro. But a man duh is better =DD Shit sia, all her songs be it 4b/5b/6b/8b, her judgements are in a range of 93.7%-98.9%. What the hell lah ! While the 3 of us are playing hard, Nigel, Jacelle, Eunice and Samantha are studying so hard ! Oh my god man ! Oh, though we all had a fun time disturbing Valerie via my phone -.- We helped her distress for 24mins sia ! Ouch. Nevermind lah hor, my phone bill won't boom I hope.

Hmm after that I bused back to 813. On the way back passed by 940 bball court, saw vincent and said bye. Hahahah. Met the 3 gals and went to prata shop to makan. After that was home sweet home. Guess there's nothing much to say le, off to sleep now ! Bye peeps !

Labels: Why worry.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 1:05 AM

Now I've got a choice to make. What to update this little space of mine with. Either talk about my daily life, or talk about life. I wonder which one should I do on? If I talk about life, there's only one topic that I can talk about, which is the weekly Apel topic. But this week's topic is really weird. Its on sex and marriage. I wonder what I can talk about siol. Then again, if I were to choose to update on my daily life, it would definitely be a boring shit post.

Guess my choice is quite distinct already. DO ON APEL TOPIC ! YES ! It'll be fun =) Hahahah, but I don't think it'll be done too soon or maybe I'll put an effort to. Which I shouldn't because I should START STUDYING for my mid-semester tests which is approaching me so fast ! However, I've roughly planned out my study timetable already, guess I won't do too well for mid-sem, but I won't score badly for it too? Guess I shall go sleep soon. Tomorrow will be another long long day... Damn ! Good night people ! And icecream look at this ----------- "I'M SO ENVIOUS OF YOUR FRIDAY !"

Labels: Apel Topic FTW.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:50 PM

Its exactly 12am for this post, so HAPPY BIRD DAY MR. LEE WEI LUN ! One of my brothers whom I've known in my year 1 life ! 18 now finally ler ! Now, me, you and sam can suan FAIZ like siao le ! Sorry that I've got no gift for you. Maybe if barca wins tonight's european cup, I'll treat you to lunch with my winnings =) Hahahahah !

Had quite a long day today. Lazy to blog about it, shall do it tomorrow night. Time to go mac and study le, before catching Barca vs Man Utd (sucks) Match ! Bye peeps ! Wish me luck for the game !

Labels: Happy birthday to you.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:00 AM

There's calculus test tomorrow, which I've not revised for yet. Hope I can do well still. LOL ! Hungry now, tired now, and I've got a craving for Macdonalds FOR DAYS ALREADY ! Hahahah. Oh, one more thing. This post will not have colours since icecream had complains.

Okay, I shall go to bed now ! Tomorrow's another long long day. Gastric siol! Bye peeps ! Hope I dream about food =)

Labels: Randomness.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:34 AM

Its by Westlife ! Hahahah. Heard this in biz park yesterday and I missed it !!! Hahaha, hope you people enjoy it !



Okay, time to go to schoool ! Update tonight ya if there's anything to update ! Bye peeps !

Labels: I don't want to live a life without you.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:40 AM

Did nothing much but slack slack and more slacking, when I'm supposed to be studying? Sat was just incredible. For one day, I don't know for how long already, I've been going out everyday ! But just that Sat, I actually stayed at home the whole day ! Oh my god, that's so not me. The whole day, there's only 3 places where I stayed stationary. The bed, the sofa and the chair in front of my lappy. @@ Oh my god, what a slacker.

Sunday was better, since I stepped out of my house after more than 36 hours???? Hahahahah. Went to the gym in the morning, where I felt that by now I should stop going there? Because my upper body seemed to be getting bigger, thanks to the numerous gym trainings I've had. Its weird that I've slimmed down, but I seemed to be growing in size -.- Awww man. Went to catch "Angels and Demons" with yam, dq and his bro dai xiong @@ hahahah. Nice show. But I don't think dai xiong knows what the show's about. He's only 12 this year mind you ! Hahahaha. Anyways, at night was spent at the bball court when I was supposed to be studying again. At least I did try, but I failed in my attempt to do so. Yes, ended up playing bball. Lol !

For today, school started at 9am. Lecture was boring. But it was revision lecture so I had to go. And I finally could login to fcuking tp webby le ! Hahahaha. Went for breakfast with the group, about 12 of us. Had prata. Then headed back to school where everyone just left, group by group though. All went for project discussions. Only me, a man duhhh and jacelle, went to meet eunice and headed to ITAS. Met icecream there ! Lol. I seriously didn't see her sia, since I was texting her, UNTIL SHE WAVED TO ME @@ Hahahahah, I cock eye one =x At about 1pm, FAOM tutorial started. Super funny as I was like super enthu ! LOL ! I've answered almost all the tutorial questions in class, where we are supposed to do them at home. BUT I never, I doubt anyone in class did. Well cher didn't bother to check also. LOL! So I did on the spot and kept answering all the questions that I think the whole class was quite frustrated with me answering so quickly. Hahahah, Sorrry people ! I did it on the spot too what, just couldn't resist giving out the answers ! Sorry ! Class ended by 2.40 and stayed on in school for project meetings/study session/waiting for icecream. Home sweet Home at 6.05pm, after picking up icecream at engine school. Lol, saw her there since I was on my way to engine school toilet @@ Went to my house cause the 2 kids are there ! They went home at about 9pm.

Wahhhh super tired sia, I think I should go to bed now. Sorry for the wordy post ! Hahahah. Freaking long day ahead, bye peeps !

Labels: Weird.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:20 PM

Peer pressure. Everyone has experienced it before. Whether its knowingly or unknowingly, a part of you is shaped by it. Whenever people mention about it, they would surely think of the negative side of peer pressure. Its because the negative side is more influential than the positive side. Thus the common reaction. However, there's always 2 sides to a coin. Its just that the positive reinforcement from peer pressure isn't too influencing. But when used timely, it can really change a person. After all, peer pressure changes you.

So what thoughts arises when you mention peer pressure? Most of you would say its smoking, drinking, going home late, blah blah blah. Yup, those responses top the chart in everyone's list. It aligned exactly with my answers too. However, not everyone is affected by peer pressure. Even though your friends do drink, smoke and whatever, you can still say "No". Just look at me, I've not smoked already, even though there are many friends around me who smokes. Everyone must learn how to reject, how to say "No', that's how you can counter peer pressure. But please, only say "No" to negative peer pressure. Don't blatantly say "No", when your friends ask you to study with them. That's just ridiculous.

As for me, I think I'm not one who spreads peer pressure. Although I always ask my friends to study hard, I don't think any of them would have heeded my advices. That's one regret I have. In any case, I'm not one who studies hard too. That accounts for why my friends don't get influenced by me, I guess. But I'm easily influenced by people around me who studies hard. Maybe its because I've got the fear of losing. I remember how I feared so much whenever weilun/sam/huihui/others studies hard for their exams. Its because I have a loser attitude within me. I hate losing to people who do better than me academically. Strange for someone who doesn't study hard huh. Anyways, let's not sidetrack. I hope that I can influence my peers to study real hard man. I seriously care for you all, if you all do not care a hoot about your future. Call me dumb/foolish, its the nature in me.

Well, I think I've got not much idea about peer pressure. Its quite a failed attempt trying to come up with this post. In the end, it still linked to me. But I guess isn't peer pressure linked to me and my peers? Isn't everything in this universe linked? Hahahah, hope you don't dislike nor despise this post. Bye peeps !

Labels: Positive and Negative.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:30 PM

Crazy but happy life I'm leading now. Its crazy to play in-house dota with my classmates till the wee hours almost every night when the mid semester tests are approaching in just 10 days? As usual, played dota last night with them till 3am. @@ Met Jonathan for breakfast in school after his cds tutorial (poor thing, all of us have no class except you&cy), which was after I've went to the market to buy some groceries. (A pure marketer who visits the market ^^) But cy overslept and didn't attend tutorial. Told Jon something shocking, which I hope he can keep it a SECRET!

Went home to charge my hp before rushing over to Auntie Kitkat's house to send the pokemon games to wl's psp. After that was the 30mins of waiting time at the staircase, which was so badly ventilated that I was nearly roasted. Oh well, can't blame her since she was so into net-surfing =( Chucking it aside, I rushed straight to Safra to get the last pool table available only to wait 30mins for Faiz and 1 hour 30mins for WL and Sam. Lawl joined me in pool and movies after that as he had no home to go home to. (Actually it was because he got no laptop at home, so he rather stayed outside.) As usual, I trashed Faiz and WL in pool. Hahahah. Lost only about 3 games for the day, and won about 5-6 times more than my loses. After that was movie session with the addition of Jasper and Hidayah. Night at The Museum 2 wasn't Fabulous, but its Hilarious. Worth catching it =)

Wl was the joke of the day. He kept saying things wrongly. He said Squirtle as Sqorturtle (pokemon), caterpie as caterpillar, Seat number for seats in movie as A (which was actually the row number), East Link foodcourt as East Lun foodcourt -.-(he meant to say yishun because he wanted to go home @@). So funny lor ! Hahahah. Anyways I was quite sorry for not going to meet nigel and whoever he's studying with in town. Sorry bro, will make it up to you another time !

After that, I went back to 813 to pass icecream the psp. Both kids, yj and another of their classmates were there too, so was Vincent's friend. Somehow I think I over-exerted or strained my body that after an hour of bball, I just had the feeling to vomit. And I did vomit somethings out. Just a little, but let's not go into the details. This makes me feel so weak =( Anyways, on the way to 813 bball court, I met hui ying and ben at the interchange. Hahahah, I guess I was quite successful with my slimming regime that everyone said I had slimmed down ! Even Jasper ! Weeee, so happy ^^ I'll continue to slim down !

Hmm, I guess I should go sleep soon since I slept at 3.30 am last night and woke up at 9am this morning. Super tired and feeling nauseous. Time to sleep le ! Shall do up the Apel topic for this week tomorrow ! Good night peeps !

Labels: Happy and Crazy de Mund.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:34 AM

I'm so not motivated to blog. Especially when its 1am now. Plus I've got no photos to upload, so another wordy post would just bore you people. I guess sleeping early would help? But I just felt like typing some junk here. I promise to cut long story short.

Monday, 15 of us and one of Eunice's+Samantha's (I think) friend went to celebrate Jonathan's Birthday. The people were "Me, Jonathan, Han Yang, Hui Jie, Cheng Yong, Nicholas, Gabriel Ng, Gabriel Wee, Amanda, Jacelle, Pei Ling, Samantha, Phoebe, Eldora, Eunice and Melissa." After that, Cy, Nic and Gabe Wee went off first as each had something to do. The rest did what? We went to play LAN ! LOL ! Crazy L4D session for 2hours++ Oh my god, can't believe there are more girls playing that night than usual. At about 8.30, Jing Kai came and we went off shortly to eat Dao Huay ! Hahaha. Home sweet Home at around 11.30pm.

Tuesday was survey day/fieldwork day. Was outside the whole day since morning 9am. Camped at orchard from 10.30 till 3+ then headed to west coast plaza via bus service 143. Slacked a few hours there doing survey and headed back to Orchard. Went Cyber Dome and the gang played L4D again @@ Woots! My class is gay man! Anywayys, I won Nigel in a race to 3 pool game ! He's really pro, but I won by luck ! Hahahah. Play again next time alright ! So after that was Dao Huay session again ! Hahaha. Home sweet Home by 11.45pm. Like again @@

Today had lessons from 9am-12pm then 1pm-3pm. 9am was basic calculus. Paid zero attention to neither lecture nor tutorial. The whole time was spent playing psp. Pokemon! Hahahaha. I'm so childish I know. There's a kid in me! After class at 3pm, a group of 17 of us went to SDC's cyber center to vote for Ben and Jing Kai into the SU committee. Hahahah. So many of us @@ but not the whole class. Slacked in school till 8pm then headed home with Faiz.

Guess my update is just too boring. Shall go sleep now ! Meeting a few others in school for work ! Bye peeps !

Labels: Just tired.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 1:07 AM

There's only 3 words to describe my past 2 days. "Tired But FUN !"

Class outing, Jon's birthday celebration, Lan session, Mass dao hui & dao huay zhui session. That's my 2M04 man ! This class, I'm so starting to love them. This class simply rocks ! Its starting to shake my world already ! The bonds are there man ! Oh my god.

Tired man, so I shall do up a proper wordy (with a few pictures hopefully) post about these 2 days tomorrow ! Hahahah shall run off now then ! Tomorrow will be another hectic day.... Bye peeps ! Oh one last thing before I forget ! Happy Birthday Jonathan Lee !!!! Miss my sisters too ! Bye !

Labels: Tired but Fun.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:55 PM

We've spent countless of hours together, day after day. Even though school has reopened, it still didn't stop us from meeting almost everyday, slacking together and playing bball together. This short 2 months we've spent together ever since we got acquainted, I'm very happy. I guess the 4 of you share the same sentiments right? Hope so.

Yesterday was spent together again. Hahaha, went to watch "Star Trek" at E-Hub! Hmm the movie was nice man ! The graphics was nice, storyline was nice and everything else was nice too ! Oh, not forgetting we spent a lot of time at the arcade. The 3 gals were so glued to one of the arcade machines that I think the accumulated time spent on that machine was like more than half the time spent at the arcade centre. Lol, before the movie was arcade time and after the movie, time's still spent at the arcade ! Anyways, I guess they enjoyed themselves, so it doesn't matter right? Ohhh, they told me that the icecream waffle was nice, but I didn't eat any because I didn't feel like eating at that time. So before the movie, I scurried off to NTUC to buy Kitkat Chunky and Kitkat Milk ^^ Hahahaha. Bought icecream kinder bueno too, but she was too full (same as the rest), that she brought it home instead. While they slacked at downtown east for awhile playing psp, I brought vincent bro to the bus stop where he could catch a bus home. Then went back to the gang, look at them play psp again and approximately at 2.30am, we cabbed home, in different cabs though. Me and bro shared a cab home, and the 3 gals took another taxi back. Then me and bro went to makan at kopitiam, eat my favourite siew mai ! And home sweet home at 3am ! Hahahaha.

Hey brother vincent and sisters, it may be only 2 months that me and bro got acquainted with you all, but it seemed like ages since we knew each other. Hope you all are happy when we are together, and may all of this last forever ! In any case, all of you must know that I love you all !!! (sounds mushy =x) So yea, anything can just give me a call, and I'll definitely help you all if its within my means. I swear I will =)

Guess I shall put a full stop to this wordy post ! (adding colours to it was the best I could do.) On to my ageing post ! Ikimasho !

Labels: You guys are my life.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:30 PM

Ageing is a scary thing. Some people may look forward to getting old, because they picture their aged life as being a happy life. They hope to be a grandparent themselves and lead a happy life by caring for their grandchildren. Some others may not look forward to growing old too. Because fear strikes their heart. Because just the mere thought of growing old, sickly and unwanted (maybe?) makes them detest it. However, one thing's for sure. All of us must and will grow old one day. The question is, will the aged life be a happy one or a sad one?

Actually, I do have mixed feelings when faced with this topic too. I do look forward to growing old. However I wish that my retired life would be a blessing one. I don't wish to suffer like some of the aged citizens out there in the society where heartless children just dump them aside, and doesn't even provide for them. At least if they were dumped inside a nursing home, its not that worse off. But simply brushing them off and not caring for them, this behaviour is totally unacceptable ! Oops I digressed too much. Anyways, Apel2 aimed to teach us to care for the people around us. So I should blog on the aged around us.

Just at what age are you considered old? The range that my class gave was an average of 55 years old. Yup, I agree too. I guess many of us have parents who are near to that age right? Lol. And I bet there are some of you who still have at least one of your grandparents remaining alive right? Well I do. Both my parents are 50 this year (I don't find them old as compared to my grandma.), and I have a 78 years old grandmother who lives with us under one roof. I bet that you do find fault with your grandparents right? I do too. Many times, you'll find old people forgetful, dirty, smelly, weird, petty, greedy, naughty. All these are the negative sides of them. That's because everyone tends to look at the bad side of people, instead of remembering their good side. For me, I'm no different. But the main difference between me and the majority of you is that, despite all that, I'm still filial to my grandparents, and I do identify her good side too. (Maybe I'm wrong if I say majority.)

Actually, when you have lived to such an age, and with a leg already inside the coffin, all you hope for is to have more care and concern from your family memberes. All you wanted was love. Maybe some cash too =x Well, its a form of care and concern what. Lol. Ever heard of this "Flowers are like human beings. They thrive with kindness." Oh well, sort of like no link? But nevermind. My point is everyone needs kindness. So does the aged. That's why all of you out there should show kindness to your parents and grandparents. Don't yell at them or order them around the house as if they are your part-time maid. They are your seniors in life, so please respect them. Otherwise your bad karma may just max out and who knows whether your children or grandchildren will treat you the same way? So be kind ! Kindness begets kindness =)

Labels: Ageing isn't scary nor happy.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:00 PM

Hahahahah, the 4th week of school ended with me going out with Dai and Yam after class. Today's school was rather short, as in the duration for mbs lecture and mkt research tutorial. Its only an hour odd each. Hahahah. So school ended at about 5.15 for me. Was outside Brand Hub discussing what to do on Monday/Tuesday. Next week's field work week, and Tuesday is also Jonathan's birthday. The gang decided to celebrate as a class for him, but our Tuesday would most likely be scheduled with the questionarre data collection thingy. Lol. So we decided to celebrate on Monday instead ! Hahahah. I didn't know that there are so many people in my class that are smoking. And many of them are girls @@ Woots !

So after that, I went home to put my books which was so heavy. Bus-ed home since it was raining. But was rather stupid because the rain stopped as soon as I dropped off -.- Nevermind about that. Went home to took some money. In the end I was rather suprised since Dad stayed at home today. He was sick, and its my fault. LOL ! I passed my flu to him. Hahahah. Its swine flu mind you ! Anyways, its really my fault. But who ask my dad to share the same room as me =X Get well soon dad.

So after that I met dai and yam to watch movie. Guess what movie I watch? X-men origins again -.- What the hell lor. HAhahah. It was supposed to be a total waste of money, but its quality time spent with the 2 of them that makes everything worthwhile =) So had wanted to eat at pizza hut, but the show was too early, so bo bian. In the end, dai went to buy his wallet and kapo while yam bought a book from Times bookstore. Both of them except me bought something new. Lol. After that we went to NTUC to buy snacks. Hahahah, bought a large packet of chipsters, snoopy potato chips (my favourite !), and a calbee wasabi flavour prawn cracker. Oh not forgetting 3 bars of kitkat chunky (each of us 1) and 1 bar of kitkat milk (mine and mine only ^^). So after that we caught the movie. Quite boring for me, but disturbing yam and spoiling him the whole time was fun. LOL !

After that we went for dinner. Wanted to eat pizza, but too many people. So we ate at Cafe Cartel. I was so hungry, so I ordered pork ribs and one mocha frappe ! Dai ordered some chicken thingy and yam copycat. Lol. Yam, you're a fish not a cat. After that was home sweet home. Dota all the way till 2.30 am then lawl told me stories. His dreams lah, weird weird de. LOL. Then I also shared mine with him. So long never chat with him like that le ^^ Although I do feel like vomitting blood at times. LOL ! Doesn't matter though, because law taught me some things ^^ Haahahaha. Some useful thingy @@ Wow, look at the time already ! Its going 4am liao @@ Hahahaha, maybe I should go sleep soon?

Labels: Woots its 4am already.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 4:00 AM

Its actually 2am already. I'm freaking hungryyyy. Hahahah. Time to go sleep soon, but I think I should blog a bit right? This morning I attended Basic Calculus' lecture before going for tutorial. There was a test, which I went unprepared. But I still could finish it. Its only 3 questions with many parts -.- Took me about 25mins, which was quite long, as the test's scheduled time was 30mins. After that was Apel lesson. Today's Apel lesson was about the topic "Ageing". Sounds like a casual word, but it strikes fear in many's heart. Not now, but in the near future, we will soon be afraid of ageing too.

Then Mr Siow also talked about owning a journal. He told us a story of his past. At the same time, he explained how writing our thoughts down can help better process the thoughts that are inside us. Which I find it quite true. Was enticed to start my own journal writing. But I hate the idea of writing on papers. Doesn't blog serve that purpose now? Nah, journals are meant for personal thoughts. Blogs are just substitutes for diaries, not journals. Diary records your daily lifes, which is the main difference between D and J. Lol.

Guess I'll do a proper post tomorrow on the topic "Ageing" ! Hahahaha. Sort off irrelevant now, but maybe after reading the post, you'll fall in love with it? LOL ! Good night people ! I'm going to sleep now !

Labels: Hungry and Tired.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 2:00 AM

Oh my god, time flies. Its already week 4 of school. Means I'm a junior for 1 month le ! Hahahah. Tiring. Can't imagine in about 2 weeks more I'm gonna have my mid semester tests. Looking at CB tutorial, I feel weird. Its like there's only 2 more tutorials in big group (aka the whole class), and after that, which is after the mid semester break, all we need to attend is 30mins of meeting up the teacher. Wow ! I wonder whether is it the same for all other modules? Hahahah.

Just got back about an hour ago from playing billiard with Jason. Hmm I lost again. As if losing to my bro on Saturday wasn't enough. At least today lose le loser don't have to punch. So its okay that I've lost. How weird, its already Tuesday and I haven't watch my One Piece anime, and there's Full Metal Alchemist too ! Lol. Something's wrong with me. Normally I would jump on to them immediately when the episodes come out on late Sunday nights or Monday mornings.

Next week would be a week where I have 2 off days instead. That's if I crash MBS lecture on Thursday morning I think. Then I would have Tuesday and Friday off. Monday's FAOM lecture and tutorial still on. Sobs no field work for that module =( Then Wednesday got CDS in the morning, after an hour of break would be Apel and then 3 hours of break before Basic of Entrepreneurship -.- 3 hours break -.- Nevermind can go home sleep. LOL! I guess I shall start revising for mid semester tests next week. Lots of stuffs to remember ! Hahahah. Suddenly got cravings for alcohol ! Damnnnnnn. Okay I shall go and bathe now before sourcing for my ads, booking bbq pit for Sat, and watching One Piece and Full Metal Alchemist. Bye peeps !

P/s: To everyone out there, please drink lots of water. The flu season is here, take care of yourself well ! Don't fall sick, because you never know whether its swine flu or not?! xD !

Labels: Tired and wants to Drink.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:30 PM

Mund is tired and crazy. He skipped lecture this morning just to go gym with wy. LOL ! Anyways, yesterday's celebration was nice. Hahahahah. But I ate quite little. Like 5-7 plates only. Lol. This is sort of the second time that I ate so little for buffet. Was telling my Mama that I've been eating very little today. She kept saying better not develop phobia for food. Lol. I won't ! Because her cooking is just terrific. Can't forgo what she cooks man, unless its eeeeeewy vegetables ! xD !

















Pictures pictures and pictures! Finally blogger is kind to me ^^ Hahahah. More photos at my facebook, those here are almost half of it LOL ! Well I think I shall go and rest first, need to go school soon. Super boreddddd. Bye peeps !

Labels: Pictury pictury Pictures post.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:45 AM

Its Sunday the 10th of May ! And its Mother's Day ! And what is more special about today? Its because Mother's Day this year falls on the same day as my Mother's Birthday ! Hahahah. Yup ! Happy Birthday Mum, and Happy Mother's Day!!! Love you lots ! Of course I won't forget something. Yesterday was my Dad's birthday too, but I was too busy with work that I couldn't do up a post for him. Happy Birthday too Dad ! I love you lots too !

Damn it stupid blogger doesn't want to upload images for me. Hahahah guess I'll put up a Mv instead ! Lol.




Guess I'll go off first then, going out soon I think. Will update more tonight. Bye peeps !

Labels: Happy Birthday Mother's Day Mum.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:40 PM

Its really sad to know that I'm in the wrong too. I always thought that I understood everyone and could give advice on everything. But I was wrong. I was too self-centered, too selfish. I guess I'm really not good enough to be a friend who could help anyone in any sticky situation. It would be my fault if I say that you did not put any effort into the friendship. You did, I did, but why did things still went wrong? I know that deep inside you, you still hated me for what I've done to you. Its because I'm such a pretentious bastard right? I've been pretending. I've been faking everything. Right? What about you? Have you been that way too? What about those incidents that took place barely a month ago?

When people get hurt, they learn to hate. When people hurt others, they become hated and racked with guilt. I'm both. I guess everyone are, which includes you. In the past, when I do get hurt, I didn't learn to hate at all. That's because I wasn't too matured in my thinking yet. But times are different now. We've all grown up. That's why we start to hate the person who hurt us. And now, I seemed to have hurt you. That's why I've become the hated and guilt had tied me down. Seriously, I had wanted to talk things out with you, but now I lack the strength to talk to you already. Its like a piece of plain white paper. Once its been smeared with ink, in this case quarrels, no matter what you do to remove that smeared ink, you can never remove it. Because there would definitely be stains on it. It can never be erased. Because humans tend to remember the one bad thing that inflicted pain on them rather than the millions of happy moments they used to enjoy in the past. Because its always harder to forget pain then to remember happiness.

Seriously, I do enjoy all our happy moments together. Playing basketball, going to catch a movie, eating, chit-chatting and stuffs. Why can't we just continue staying that way? Isn't it better? I mean if things really have to develop till this stage, why don't we sit down amiably and talk things out again? I don't want us to start a silent war like in the past, until I start to talk to you, asking you out. I don't want such things to happen again. I really don't wish for it to happen. Maybe its my mistake. Just point it out to me alright? I'll change. I'll definitely change.

Labels: Speechless.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:30 AM

So is it my fault now or what? I seriously don't get it. That day I was just tired, I just didn't feel like going out or what? And just like that I was misunderstood? Its like what wrong did I do? Must I keep going down? Its like, there's already enough jokes around with just you? Do you still need me? I don't know why, just because of that you thought I was angry? Like seriously no? I needed time to do homework too alright. So do you have to show me this attitude? Do you have to badmouth me? If we were to compare, you are far worse off than me, that I can assure. The things I've done to you and the things I've done for you, which do you take in? I wonder why is it so hard to maintain our friendship. True friends do quarrel at times, but we quarrel far too many times. You really make me wonder, when you said you've changed, have you? Fancy me putting so much effort in this friendship. Why is it always me who is in the wrong when I'm obviously not? And why must I bend my head down and swallow whatever agony that I'm not suppose to keep mum to and apologize? Must I? I don't mind all that misery if you just show me that its worth doing for. I really don't mind. I really thought we were best friends, but are we? You give me an answer alright, because I do cherish our friendship still.

Labels: True friends are important.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 1:30 AM

The mv is about how Jay Chou got to know this girl in a hospital. Day after day, they sort of bonded together. However, Jay used to like this woman, a gang boss' woman. He didn't want to be stuck in such a situation anymore so he got beaten up when he decided to leave the woman. After that he got together with the girl in the hospital. So sweet sia, so romantic ! Hahahah. But one day when the woman came and hug jay, the girl saw it and that's gg. Something like that. Look at the mv yourself. Quite nice ^^ No wonder the song is titled that way and the lyrics are so compatible.



The mv is about Jay and his penpal. Somehow they knew each other, and wrote letters to each other every week? Gradually, the sick girl become more sick, until she got no strength to write letters to Jay. Fortunately, she got a friend who reads his letters to her and helps her to reply his letters. In the end, when the girl passed away, she requested her friend to continue writing letters to Jay. What a sad story. Jay didn't know about it, as if the letter was still written by the girl. No wonder the lyrics are written this way. Hahahah. Enjoy ^^



This setting is a Spain I think.　Ｈａｈａｈａ．　Ｊａｙ　Ｃｈｏｕ　ｈａｓ　ｇｏｔ　ａｎ　ａｎｇ　ｍｏｈ　ｇｆ．　Ｌｏｌ．　Ｃｏｏｌ　ｓｉａ，　ｈｅ＇ｓ　ｓｉｎｇｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｏｎｇ　ｆｏｒ　ｈｅｒ　ａｔ　ｈｅｒ　ｗｉｎｄｏｗ．And I find that at the end when Jay's cladded in blue jacket, he look so cool and handsome !　Ｅｎｊｏｙ　ｔｈｅ　Ｍｕｓｉｃ，　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｔｈｅｒｅ＇ｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｓｔｏｒｙｌｉｎｅ　ｔｏ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｓｏｎｇ．



Ｔｈｉｓ MV is super romantic I swear ! Hahahaha. Didn't think that love will come so easily. Omg its like the lady called the wrong number and then Jay chou answered. And they started to go out together. Oh My God ! This can never happen in real life. This is impossible ! That's why its a MV ! Anyways, its funny to hear Jay speak in dialect. Lol.



Actually I don't quite get this Mv's story. Hahahah. Is it because they broke up? But then the mv doesn't show like it. Anyways its quite funny lor the mv. Interesting. But one thing I noted, the parts when Jay Chou lean against the tree, he looked like an ugly YANG ZHONG WEI ! LOL ! Oops. Regardless, enjoy it ^^

Labels: Jay Chou for the win.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 4:00 PM

Do you know about me? Do you know that I'm always alone at home since both my parents are working? Do you know that whenever I cross my fingers, I'm actually waiting for someone to talk to me? Do you know that when I'm quiet there's actually millions of thoughts running through me? Do you know when I talk, I don't look into the eyes of girls? Do you know that despite being hard, I try to accede to all my friends' requests? Do you know that I'm being labeled as selfish? Do you know that when I'm talking a lot, I'm actually trying to cheer myself up? Do you know that deep inside me I'm a lonely person? Do you know that I wish to talk to that person whom I've not talk to for 4 years? Do you know that my closest friends cheers me up the most, yet they are the ones who hurt me the most too? Do you know that all I want is someone to cheer me up when I'm sick and tired of life? Do you know that all I ask for is some care and concern? Do you know that the me in school and the me at home are one of a kind? Do you know that I always tell myself to move forward despite all the obstacles that I'll bump into? Do you know that when I'm tired of life, what motivates me is when I'm thinking of the one that I misses most? Do you all know that I'm selfish in disguise? Do you all know I try to make everything somewhat ends up with a happy ending? Do you all know that I'm a failure? Do you all know I care for each and everyone of you? Do you all know this much about me? I doubt you all don't right? But after this, you might just do. Guess I'll go to school now. Bye....

Labels: You don't before but you do now.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:35 AM

This is one touching mv. Though its old, but its nice. And there's jay ! Hahahah. Well its about how a boy (jay chou), when he's young, he constantly protected this blind girl. Until one day the gal left for overseas to get her eyes treated. Before she left, she gave him a band. Many years later when the boy, now an adult already, saw a woman being bullied, so he went forward and save her. Then.....you just see. Anyways, in the end the gal still didn't get to see the boy properly.

That's about it. No wonder when I listen to this song I tend to have my emotions building up. Hahaha, its kindda sad. Sort of tell me not to have regrets. And its kind of romantic lor. Lol. Gah, I think I shall go to bed now. Super tired. Bye peeps !

Labels: The Longest Movie.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:15 AM

School life's been good for me lately. The class is starting to bond, and I love my project group mates. They are really nice people. Well my classmates are nice people too. Hahahah, its really a blessing in disguise to be alone in this class. I get to make friends all over again. Though its a bit tedious, since I'm quite an anti-socialite. But I guess I can get used to my new life. Busy school life where there are many friends to see, with that extra burden of completing projects though.

At the same time, my life is in a big mess. I don't know why I tend to worry about so many things. It may be due to my brain. Maybe if you remove it from me, I won't live such a worry-so-much life anymore? Its really the nature of me to worry about this and that. And my worries range from A-Z. Can't name them all, but whoever I know, you all are part of my worries.

Guess I'll stop blogging. I can't seem to blog properly. Hope everything will be like before. I've gotta snap out of it already. But, where's the path of light? I'm just not discerning enough. Alright, bye peeps !

Labels: Full-of-worries de Life.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 8:00 PM

Friends are important. Friends are your pillar of support. Friends are a must for everyone. Friends are...

1) Trustworthy
2) Understanding
3) Honest
4) Sincere
5) Loyal
6) People who Empathize you
7) Sensitive to your every actions
8) Spontaneous
9) Truthful
10) Forever

That's the top 10 quality that a friend should possess. That's also the topic that I've talked about for Apel today. We all agreed as a class that those 10 qualities above are a must for friends to be considered as friends. Mr. Philip Siow is really good man. How I wish I could attend hours and hours of his Apel class instead of only an allocated 1 hour. Maybe I'm just being subjective. Maybe its because its been a long time since I could talk to an adult openly, without worrying that I'll be laughed at. To think we even share the same viewpoint.

4 Things I Believe About Friends:

1) I could laugh and cry together with them.
2) They say things that are harsh but I know its the truth.
3) They are receptive. In other words, they accept your every good and bad points.
4) They are someone you can call at 3am when you are in crisis or have suicide tendency.

Its so true. That's what I believe friends should be. But to find such friends who share the same beliefs, you yourself must be such a person. Not all the friends that you know can cry and laugh with you. There are some that are friends with you, but you just find it hard to talk to them even, let only crying or laughing together? I remember Mr. Siow said something about a late doctor saying this " If by the time you are dead and you have one handful of true friends that you can count, you are considered to have lived a blessed life." Its so true. Afterall its only through hard times do you find true friends.

On many occassions, I've been counting the number of true friends I have. Its really hard to count. But I'm glad that I do have receptive ones. Being me, its extremely hard to make friends, let alone have any true friends? Fortunately my lucky stars are always shining on me, thus I'm sort of living a blessed life already. Although many times, when I go the extra mile for my friends, they may not notice it, and I do feel sad about it, I would still think in their shoes and find reasons that accounts for their action. That's why, I've never been angry with any friends. At least when I do, I keep them suppressed within me, never letting them see the light outside.

Guess this post is rather lengthy enough. One Last Thing Before I Forget ! Please visit this shop if you are a gal =) http://veraniokiss.livejournal.com/ Thank you ! Shall stop here alright? Bye peeps ! Take care.

Labels: I've got more than a handful of true friends.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:30 PM

Time to start pushing myself to the limits again. Time to be consistent again. Time to start studying again. Time to really adjust myself back to school life again. I've really slacked enough. Its really time for me to go back to study mode. Its already the 3rd week of school semester, yet I kept thinking of playing, thinking of going out. My attention span had died off already. I need it back. I need to start doing my tutorials once lecture is over and really put my heart and soul into it. Its only another 3 weeks before the mid semester tests come, I need to study hard already. But, I see no motivation. Especially after that many chain of events that took place. I'm shaken. Shaken hard all over.

But still I need to get my priorities right. I need to. I can't afford to let myself slacken off just like that. I need to get good grades, but all talk and no action would bring me nowhere. How? I guess I need to be more ruthless. I need to abstain from going out. I need to keep my emotions in check. I just need more of CC. That way, I'll be able to do well. Guess my time is over, my show is over. Get back to reality already Mund, its time to. You've seen it with your eyes, why won't you still believe it? Just get it over with already, you're done for.

Well I guess its time for me to go school, bye peeps.

Labels: You still said bye at the end of the story.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:35 AM

So much things to say yet they can never be voiced out. Sometimes I do wish that I can break my own silent treatment. I wonder why is it so hard to cheer people around me. Maybe I know why. Its because I'm never the joker-cheer-people-up kind of person. I'm just a quiet and lonely boy =) I guess I tend to do things behind people's back so that they will never realise my presence. Its actually good to be able to conceal myself in this large large world. At least I know that my conscience is clear and I do really want you people to be happy, even at the expense of my own happiness. Just a smile, it can wipe away all the misery that had constantly stayed in my inner heart. At least that's what I think and how I think everything works out for me. Maybe I'm just hallucinating, imagining things, trying to break the facade of myself.

I've tried hard peeps. I've tried hard. And I don't mind trying any harder. But I'm being pulled down by sheer exhaustion. Seriously, I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to pull stunts off. I'm tired of trying so hard yet nothing proceeds within my least expectations. I'm fading off already. My determination to survive, to live. Everything just seemed to have obliterated in an instant, a blink of an eye. Why? If I do know why, maybe everything would be better? Once again, I feel like shedding tears. But I just lost the touch of it. I seriously can't tear at all. Why? Call me cold-blooded or what, its okay. As long as I can cry again, I won't mind being laughed at or what. Its because crying can release the tension that is forcing me to the brink of extinction. I do not know how long more I can hold on to things in the current state. I can't afford to break down at this juncture either. Or else I would be deemed as a failure not by anyone, but myself. I'll despise myself, hate myself and hurt myself for that.

And after reading this post, many of you would think that I'm emoing or whatever. I won't deny that, neither am I accepting your biased point of view. You have gotten only a quarter of the picture from this post, so don't go around conjuring stuffs like that. Yup, I'm having mixed feelings once again, but for a different reason. I'm starting to be in doubts. I'm starting to think, "Am I worthy as a friend?" Its because of such destructive thoughts that my mind goes in a whirl. It makes me feel like going on a rampage of destruction, to destroy myself.

I guess waking up in the morning with severe headache spells sure made me go through hell. As if skipping lecture isn't bad enough already, and here I am typing all these junk. But isn't that what a blog should be? Typing anything that appears in the mind. Anything that you wish you could say, yet couldn't? I guess I'm lying if you aren't getting a full picture of my current mind. Nah, it didn't matter. Not in the past or the present, so neither will it matter in the future. Guess I'll go rest up a bit more before going to school. Cya peeps, thanks for all the concern spammage at my tags. I truly appreciate them. Sorry for another emotional-thinking-a-lot post.

Labels: Not good A time.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 10:15 AM

Its good, everything went back to as before. I guess I'll return to the usual me too. That's what I originally am right?

Today got my own lappy. Finally. Dad just bought it on rash. Didn't bother whether the design was nice or what since I'm not the one paying. Walked around tm with 2 aunts and dad. Saw Jeanette Aw at tm. Quite pretty. Then went to dq's house to play mahjong.

Met bro and sistas at playground. I felt super unwell. Was feeling stuffy, headache and had dizzy spells. Slacked awhile and vomitted. Then went off to watch Liverpool's match. Nice diving header by Kyut. Then headed back to play bball with bro, sistas and vincent.

Guess I should go to bed soon. Good night people.

Labels: Moodless.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 12:30 AM

Responsibility is very important. It can be a burden at times, but it is a must to shoulder them always. Responsibility can be found everywhere, especially in a relationship. Relationship I would mean either that of a boy and girl or that between friends, close friends. In a boy and girl relationship, the responsibility always lies on the guy's shoulder. However, the girl do have some responsibilities too. Which means, in a relationship, shared responsibility is a must for the relationship to be ongoing and forever lasting.

Responsibility is actually a subset of trust. If one isn't responsible enough, trust can never be build up easily. For example, if you lend a friend an amount of cash for him to tide things over, but overtime he doesn't pay up promptly. In the future, he asks for more loan from you, would you still trust him and lend him that lump sum that he needs? The answer would be an obvious no. In the case of a relationship, responsibility is somewhat the same as being honest. Why is it so? Its like if you are responsible, you'll make sure that whatever promises you make, you'll ensure that they are completed, never broken. Because once these promises are broken, you've just done something bad. Its called lying. When you lie, you've just committed a taboo. You've just demolished the trust you've tried so hard to build right from the start.

That's why responsibility is very heavy. Being responsible is hard. But maintaining a relationship is even more difficult. Because being responsible is just a basis of building or maintaining a relationship. Its also the basis of building up trust. There's so much things that revolves around a relationship. And to keep things going, you really need to put in lots of effort, energy and heart into it before you can concoct a nice love story out of it.

Suddenly I feel like I've fallen into an abyss of darkness. In life, its just so hard to identify which bridge to cross and which bridge to burn. Its because your judgement is constantly shrouded by your surroundings, that's why its very hard to make a right decision many times in life. I guess I should put a full stop to this junky post already. Time to go out and get my lappy ^^ Bye peeps !

Labels: Abyss of Darkness.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:40 AM

Since I've not been blogging about life as much as last time, I think I should touch on it a little now. School semester had started and the second week of school's over. Initially I was rather afraid of going school this week, because I'm finally meeting my new classmates. But my worries turned out to be for naught. My classmates turned out to be real nice people ! Hahahah, I guess I'll be able to cope with this new life and new classmates. Hope everything turns out fine !

I can't remember what I've done during the week, except studying. School just ends at 6pm on tuesday while it ends at 8pm on wednesday. Monday ended at 3pm, so I waited for the gals to finish school before they come over to my house to slack. They seemed to enjoy sleeping on my bed a lot sia @@





Then came my super short Thursday for this week. Caught "X-Men Origins : Wolverine". Super nice. Hahahahah. Everyone should catch it ! Then yesterday went out with weilun, samuel and dareld. Caught "The International". The ending sucks, because bad guys win. I hate endings of such police and thief shows. Lol. But the gunning scene was superb. Hahah, so some ranting on the show would be enough =) That's roughly what my life had been about lately. Seriously I'm lazy to do all the long wordy post on life that I've done in the past, so just the gist of it would do right?

Labels: Boring life I live.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 3:00 PM

Appearance and reality, these two co-exists. At the same time, they are an irony to each other. Never judge a book by its cover. That's why appearance or looks can be deceiving. It applies to your everyday life. For me, my appearance gives the look that I'm really unfriendly, hanging out with bad companies, and maybe I like to lie? In reality, I dare to say I don't possess any of the qualities above. I would say not entirely none, but I do act unfriendly to people whom I don't like (hardly anyone ler except B) and lie at times to my parents just to make sure they aren't worried about me. Sometimes you've got to know that white lies help to pacify one's mood.

In love, appearance is always on the top of the list of lookout. That's reality. However, that's only half of the truth. Appearance may always be ranked number one, but as time goes by, you'll realise that when you love someone, appearance doesn't matter. Its the character of that person that prompts you to fall into the bottomless pit of love, to never climb out of it even though you have the strength to do so. That's why the appearance side of love is looks while the reality side of love is character. Who doesn't want a handsome boyfriend or a pretty girlfriend? Everyone is superficial, there's no one in this world who isn't. But time changes a person's point of view, aspects on love, and the way they love people. Time will tell. Time will make that appearance disappear and bring forth the power of reality. Its said that "Happiness = Expectations/Reality. And the only way to achieve maximum Happiness? Either you decrease your expectations or you change reality."

Sometimes loving someone doesn't mean changing yourself for that person. If that person expects you to change for him/her, then face reality, face the truth, that person's worthless. He/she is not worthy of your pure love. Love is a mutual feeling, its a pure feeling. No one should tarnish the image of pure love. I don't mean that one shouldn't change for your loved ones, but the change here should be done unknowingly and together. If its a reminder-of-sort type of change, then I fathom that the relationship won't work out. How about putting things these way: Look around you, you'll see people who sincerely hopes that you will remain as pure as always, never tainted. Its because of love, care and concern. That is reality. There's no more appearance to it.

Wow, I think I've typed a piece of junk. Guess I'll stop here for now. Time to take a bath and have brunch ! Bye peeps !

Labels: Make the right choice and be yourself.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:11 AM