Can't believe you did it again. Can't believe it you know? It really disappoints me, really angers me, but I just can't do a thing except feel shocked about it. I wonder why they give in to you despite the many times of how you proved unworthy of your doing, I just don't get it. Enlighten me please. Or maybe I need to be loved. I need someone to confide in. I need you. Please talk to me.

Labels: Disappointed as Always.

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saw a rainbow @ 11:55 PM

Sometimes I wonder how is it like to have no secrets. Deep inside everyone there's bound to be a secret which you don't want to disclose to anyone. Not even to your own best friend. Because you might never know how they would react to it after knowing. Hence the need for privacy, secrecy.

On many occasions, I've been trying hard to guess what is wrong. I've been yearning to help everyone to close the gap, fill the gap, do whatever I can to bond everyone together. Yet time and time again I failed to meet my own expectations. There's a limit to what I can do, but there's no limit to what I wish to do. I wish the best for everyone, that's why I try hard to help everyone to my utmost ability. Aiming to fulfill an overall wish of mine: For you to be happy.

Is it that hard to clear things up? I don't know about that. But I do wish to be of some help. I wish I could suck away those oil that makes people slip past one another, getting further and further away, drifting yet further apart. If only I could read people's mind. If only I could say everything to you too. All the if's are nothing but conjectures, wishes, desires. Please do not go thinking I'm talking about you, afterall I'm talking about myself here. I wish to say it out to you, the special one. One thing I could leave here happy about is my new blogskin :) Bye!

Labels: I wish to say that.

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saw a rainbow @ 8:30 PM

Had a really sweet dream last night which made me really happy when I woke up. I practically smiled till my teeth all dropped. LOLL! Its my secret dream so I'm not gonna tell you what it is. Just know that its so sweet that I feel so high for the day.

CCN day was a hectic day for me. Though I'm a bit disappointed that only 10/24 people of 2m04 came to help out. Okay there were some who really can't make it, while there are some who just didn't bother. Well its okay, since we had a really good time today!

I need pictures for my post, and I'm considering to change blog skin now now now! But I'm too lazy. Maybe tomorrow :) So watch out for it?

By the way, Happy Birthday huihui! I remember how the class celebrated for you last year and how your tears dropped. Hahahah! But so many things have happened in this short span of a year, hope you'll enjoy your sweet 18!

Labels: Nice Day.

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saw a rainbow @ 10:15 PM

I must share this man! Read it enjoy it as its super meaningful!

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"

I just did......

Had coffee with manduh just now already, so gotta go find foood before my gastric pains worsens! Bye all~!

Labels: Meaningfulllllllll.

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saw a rainbow @ 11:11 PM

I'm uber bored. I thought of doing something. I felt like having a laptop which I can throw out of my window. I always think how people look after their laptops, so how about throwing or smashing or destroying one? I felt like taking a hammer and smash one lor. See to what extent can I spoil a laptop into.

No I'm not turning crazy here. I'm just bored. I may sound crazy but I'm not. I'm also not turning violent here. I'm super bored to the core. Really. Although I think I should be doing my work here and there, but I'm just too lazy. Again, its the result of boredom. Woohooo. Everything I say in this post is just bored bored bored -.-

Then again I think I should find something to do which I can make myself happy. Because being unhappy virtually spells the end of life, and that sucks ya know? I want to be happy also! But I can't seem to find anything I can do to make me happy while being occupied. Woah! I may need to see a shrink for this. Loll! Maybe just having something to think about or even someone to think of can make things work? I don't know, but I'll be searching for it! I'm on the great hunt now, the "Treasure Hunter". Jay Chou.

Labels: Happy Sha La La.

Mund
saw a rainbow @ 11:35 PM

Time is flying away fast man. So fast, another week is ending soon. And so soon it'll be year 2010. And tuning in later, I'm gonna turn 19. OMG. 19!!! Its 1 year away from hitting 20 man. HoMiGod. I feel so old =/

Anyways, the semester has started to warm up. Many submissions are coming on already. Die die die. Need to do well for this semester. Must man! I must. But then again I think it'll take some time to tame myself. It takes 30 days to form a habit, which must be shaped throughout consistently. I hope I can do it.

One more thing, I must lose more kilos man. I hope I can find time. Then again, problems are sufficing more obviously.

Labels: Fly away.

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saw a rainbow @ 6:40 PM

I'm gonna work doubly hard for this semester man. I need to see an increase in my GPA! Yeah I hope everything is going to work out fine. Everything is going fine at home except for some issues regarding to my bro, nothing's wrong with my circle of friends except that I don't have all the time in the world to spend with them, anything is fine with my class since we are so bonded all the time, except that issues that are not too obvious may start to suffice to the surface of water. I stress on the word may.

Basically everything that affects me via the external factors are fine. Except one. I WANT SOMEONE WHOM I CAN BITCH WITH, TO, WHATEVER! Though its quite random :x

And playing dota at a competitive level is so different. I can't imagine I could have a go at it. Hope my team will do well! Though its only a small campus competition, but we'll give it our best shot yeah!

I'm just good, good to everyone so that I'm being good to myself. There ain't nothing I could own from them, except happiness? All I wish is that people will confide in me when they need someone to thrash all their rubbish. I'm a bin, once I collect its considered gone. Really wish I could have one, the close one.

Labels: HoMiGod.

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saw a rainbow @ 10:30 AM